i have this weird pattern of feeling really, really good at the beginning of the week and then sorta not so good - freaking out about the world, etc - but the mid/end of the week. i've realized lately that it usually coincides with my own silly choices that are daily, weekly occurances. i'm going to try and pay more attention to my actions and how they negatively or positively affect my thoughts/emotions/general overall well being. seems like such a simple concept, right? and yet i feel largely like i just live my life and do things without considering how they are shaping everything about who i am. i'm a horribly impulsive creature, and moving less, stopping more is something that i really need to learn how to do. there must be some healthy balance between the two - and i am way off into mostly one direction. blerg.

in other wonderful things, alex and ryan are married and they had the best wedding i've ever attended. it was a blessing to be a part of their day. they're the greatest!