past few days have been fulfilling. great community, great blessings, great god. i've been working out solid for the past two weeks now, which is good. really good. i feel outstanding. it's amazing how many things we don't realize affect how we feel. like exercise. and not having smoke in our lungs. i want to train for this triathlon i found in september, as a reward to my body for quitting cigs. i've also cut meat out of my diet again (mostly, except for the bacon i had the other night that proceeded too many drinks) and although i've never been super hard and fast about that, i'm finding a new appreciation for tofu, and working at a restaurant where everything can come veg, it's not as hard.

while at first glace it sounds (and i sometimes feel) these things are superficial, my intentions truly lie within the discipline. in needing so much discipline spiritually, i can only hope that practicing it physically will encourage me further, and help fuel my soul forward. it's the only thing i need anyhow.

thinking about how much love i have for those little kids i babysit for, how much i miss my morris friends, how my heart goes out to so many people and places and things right now.

favorite memory this moment: october mornings, wrapped in blankets, hot cup of tea, morris porch, sight and sound of birds on the wires and in the trees. if i close my eyes, i can almost feel those mornings exactly.