so i was surprised by the feeling of light last night.
i haven't felt that in a really, really long time.
mostly i've just feel like i'm a huge screw-up, i can't get it right, i'm struggling to hold on to the things i believe in. struggling to follow through. spending time in darkness.
but for the first time in a long time, i felt this crazy radiant light. i don't know if it's the company that brought it out in me, or the thoughts i've been sifting through my head, or the way the past few months have brought about the biggest transformation in every single place. the way things have changed so tremendously.
i don't want it to go away.
i want to always feel like light.

things are seriously wild. i'll never, in a million years, understand his ways.