it's been some time, writing wise. partially because the d and e keys fell off of my keyboard, or were rampantly pulled off of my keyboard in attempts to remove the debris that had been hindering e key's performance. long story short, d was in the wrong place at the wrong time, thus getting lifted as well. and since apparently laptop keys aren't like real keyboard keys, and since apparently i didn't know this, i can't get them back on for the life of me. and so i type away, having to perfect my typing aim with farewelled friends d and e, or what's left of them - little nipply nubs. it's a rough world.

in other news, my time has been consumed with lost - and my addiction not for fictional sci-fi mystery shows, but for being able to watch a program consecutively from the very beginning whenever i please. someone at hulu is out to steal my productivity. i mostly wrestle with "i shouldn't be doing this, it's such a remarkable waste of my time". yet still watching. faults.

and oh, hi clarity. i'm really grateful you decided to join me here, because things were getting a little hairy without you. i know i should be humble. but seriously? i saw that coming from a mile away. so i'm still moving, but now farther and faster, because i'm realizing the things i saw in my head and the things that actually exist weren't really ever aligned. i guess i'm just an optomist like that. or delusional. but the one who calls is faithful, so these realizations are coming at the time they're supposed to come. and i'm just meant to bask in the season i'm in. i'm getting someplace, i hope.

asking, always asking what's next. praying for more direction. lots of time on my hands. needing to be more creative, learn how to make more stuff. we'll see how that goes.

progression.