the family i cared for most in portland is being evicted.

i can't help but thinking that this wouldn't have happened if i were still there, i could have helped them clean their house, get their things together, fight for them.

if i hadn't ruined everything, if i hadn't made these mistakes, these people wouldn't be losing their home. on top of everything else.

and the voice of charles harvey is in my head, saying, "i can't afford to not walk close with the lord. because when i sin, it doesn't just affect me. it affects my family and my boys and girls and my ministry and the entire world around me. it's not worth the cost."

oh lord.