oh things.

for three weeks in a row now, i've gone to becca and chris's to watch the biggest loser. i never really thought i would get into the show, but i actually love it. i don't know if it's just the season or whatever, but there is such an attitude of togetherness among the contestants. they look out for each other and encourage one another to get healthy and motivated. it pretty much just makes me feel good when no one is catty or sneaky about wanting to win. everyone there just wants to lose weight, but they also know how important it is for everyone else too. so they're supportive. i love it. i guess reality tv isn't always my thing, but it's nice to know shows like the bachelor aren't ruling the genre.

it was nice for a minute and now it's snowing again. i feel as though i'm less sick of the weather than i have been in past years, mostly because my seasons were so split up between the east and the west. it wasn't a true winter. but now i'm starting to get antsy and i cannot cannot wait for the sun and the warmth. it will be absolutely wonderful.

i feel like i had the first productive conversation today than i've had with anyone in a long time. i guess with everything going on, i've really struggled with who and how to talk about things, and also just finding someone who could be removed from the situation and tell me where i need to go (even though i pretty much knew it all along, yet no one else seemed to be able to confirm it for me and i kept letting myself get sucked back into my own emotional cycle). so that was helpful and very good.

i've been showering less.

it makes me angry when people get grossed out about when you shower. like who determined that we have to shower every day in order to be clean? that's outrageous. especially in the winter, especially when i don't sweat all that much...it seems a bit over the top. and yet generally, when i mention that i haven't showered in like, a day, or even two, people will be like, you haven't SHOWERED in two days? eww. i could never do that. seriously? like, legitimately, you could never go more than two days without a shower. or what? what will happen to you? you'll die in a puddle of your filth? you'll throw up all over yourself because you're so dirty? it's not like i'm a garbage man or a sewage worker or anything. and if a garbage man or sewage worker said they couldn't go two days without showering, i'd believe them. but not anyone else. honestly. geez don't make me feel dumb for trying to save some freaking water and save money.

i have discovered my new love, demetri martin. maybe we'll get married and laugh together in the sunset. probably not, but really, he's so hilarious. i don't know if i could pick a favorite joke of his because they're all amazing. but i did laugh really hard at this one:

If I ever saw an amputee getting hanged, I’d probably just start calling out letters.

also, there's this hiiiilarious video that made me laugh so hard i almost cried. it doesn't seem like it's going to be so funny at first, but its worth it.

this life is going places.